prepare to go AT ONCE

AT ONCE they left their nets and followed Him – Matthew 4:20. I honestly had to put the book down once I read that. The problem for me is I always have a million things to do or to distract me. Honestly, I can think of a million things that would have caused me to pause.

First the verse before Matthew 4:19 He says “Come follow me and I will make you fishers of men.” I can hear me thinking and maybe bold enough to say – What if I don’t want to do that?

And where it says AT ONCE (meaning no hesitation, no excuses, no 50 questions) they left their nets and followed Him. As a mom, I will say, come here at once. Chances are, my children will ask to wait for a commercial is on or yell back what do you want instead of dropping everything and coming. But, that comes by honestly. I can think of many ways I may have reacted if I was these brothers being called to be disciples.

They would likely include

  • I would want to verify He was who He said He was.
  •  But Lord, if I drop my nets who will feed my family?
  • But Lord, if I don’t fish who will support my family?
  • But Lord, it is all I know how to do.
  •  What if I change my mind when I get where you are leading

 And if I did follow, I would be thinking

  • Who will take care of my children and husband?
  • Are you sure you want me?? 
  • Are we there yet? Where are we going?
  • How much time will this take because I have a million things on my calendar?
  • Can I stop by my house and get my belongings (my phone, my Kindle, etc..)?
  • If we do stop by the house, you definitely cannot come in because I wasn’t expecting company!

Yes, those and many more would be my response. Oh, how I long to be silent long enough and spend enough time with Him that I can hear him whisper “Sheri, come follow me and I will make you _______.” The problem is I have my own vision of how to fill in the blank. I don’t know that I have really consistently consulted God. As a child, I knew I wanted to be a nurse. When I started dating my husband in high school I knew that I would be a nurse, graduate from college before I got married, and live in Markleysburg / Mountains. We talked about that on the first date because I wasn’t getting involved with someone who did not agree with my plan. I had good reasons, mostly because of mom and grandma I wanted to stay within a close distance. Do I believe that God led me in the pathway of nursing, and to my wonderful husband – YES! However, I also had planned 4-6 children right after we were married (we dated 5 years)… well, that is where God changed the blank and I was NOT happy that He messed with MY plans. But, He blessed us with two and for that I am grateful.

The other issue isn’t just being quiet long enough to hear Him, but spending enough time with Him to know Him like He knows me. When I spend time with people, I tend to trust them more. I know their likes/dislikes, their favorite foods, their favorite movies and music, etc.. If my friends would call and say would you like to go with us, I would likely try to make a way so I could (husband fed, children taken care of, and well the house can wait till I get back). Christ knows my favorites, He knows my thoughts, He knows my strengths and weaknesses, and He even knows the hairs on my head. So, why is it that I don’t trust Him with my plans? That is the relationship I need / want with Christ. The kind that when He calls me, and I stop everything and just make it happen.

It is very hard for me to let go of my plans, my vision, and my wants… so hard, that I am afraid I would so hesitate and find it difficult to go AT ONCE. But, I know that when I do let go, I will hear Him say and reach out His hand and say…”Sheri, come follow me and I will make you GREATER.”

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13 thoughts on “prepare to go AT ONCE

  1. Marcie Spencer Anderson December 6, 2012 at 5:12 pm Reply

    Thank YOU, Sheri for honestly sharing..I can hear my own questions along side of yours. I also followed a Nursing plan (more God’s timing and not mine) and had a Family different than I dreamed about as a youngster. Each day I have to remind myself to be very very still (so hard for me!) and listen to God’s voice. Each day now I have to remember that I know that voice and I have to follow that voice. Just like you said..AT ONCE. Thank you for sharing, it really helped me pause. 🙂

    • sherisoulsearch December 7, 2012 at 10:51 am Reply

      Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog and comment. One of the awesome things about the OBS is meeting people for the first time that I have so many similarities with. It is just a reminder — we are never alone. One of my favorite verses is “Be Still.. and know that I am God” – which I further interpret personally as “Be Quiet Sheri – I got this covered, Love God!” Thanks again!

  2. bloggerlovestheking December 6, 2012 at 5:48 pm Reply

    Love your post Sheri from the heart and He will make you GREATER! Blessings. Debbie W. (OBS Leader)

    • sherisoulsearch December 7, 2012 at 10:51 am Reply

      Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog… sometimes it is hard to be honest because life is full of impressing others… but it is only in honesty that answers are found. God Bless!

  3. Nicki Edwards: Day to Day Trusting God December 6, 2012 at 6:33 pm Reply

    Sheri your blog post totally resonated with me! I think every question you would ask before you follow God and even once you started following God is EXACTLY what I would ask!!! Must be something about nurses! We like to control things!
    Great writing. I really enjoyed reading this.
    God bless you
    Love
    Nicki (OBS Leader)

    • sherisoulsearch December 7, 2012 at 10:55 am Reply

      Thank you Nicki for taking the time to read and reply to my blog. It is amazing how scripture that I have heard my whole life has taken such a new meaning. The nurse in me likes to control, to help, and mostly to take care of everything on my own. This is my first OBS (not my last) because it makes me step outside of my “normal” and opens my vulnerable. Something I definately need to become GREATER. God Bless!

  4. amysmail72 December 6, 2012 at 7:22 pm Reply

    Sheri, I really enjoyed your blog post. I agree with Nicki in that I can hear myself asking the very same questions. I struggle with control and pride and oh how I am desperately trying to just let it all go and simply trust!!!!

    Blessings 🙂

    • sherisoulsearch December 7, 2012 at 10:57 am Reply

      Thank you Amy for reading and commenting. I always knew control and trust were issues – but putting them onto paper made it unavoidable to deal with… That is why He lead me to my first OBS. God Bless!

  5. Marcie December 7, 2012 at 12:51 am Reply

    Sheri_ I came back to make another post to you and my first post must have not been saved..I really liked your post! The questions you asked paralleled many of mine. I’m also a Nurse (I see Nurses do like to ask questions and make their OWN plans–Thank you too, Nicki Edwards) Your insight really spoke to my heart. I do intend to spend more time being very very quiet (very hard for me too!) and taking time to read the Word to fill my life–trusting relentlessly (that’s my 2013 phrase!) Thank you for your honesty and sharing your heart. We are all headed to >greater!

    • sherisoulsearch December 7, 2012 at 10:59 am Reply

      Marcie – thanks for coming back, but it appears the first post saved. Nurses – we are a breed of our own — just like us to go back and make sure our work is done, comments are posted, etc… It is nice to know we are not alone in this big world (=

  6. Jenny December 7, 2012 at 1:36 pm Reply

    Sheri, proceeding without a detailed plan is my biggest fear. Your post asked all the right questions for me!

    • sherisoulsearch December 7, 2012 at 1:41 pm Reply

      Thank you for reading my blog and replying.. I am a control-kinda-girl… Blessings…

  7. Karen December 8, 2012 at 5:33 pm Reply

    Sheri, you reached into my soul with this. All my busy-ness, distractions, diversions, questions, challenges, doubts, reservations were addressed in this one simple sentence of yours, “Oh, how I long to be silent long enough and spend enough time with Him that I can hear him whisper…” This will resonate through me for a long long time, and challenges me to be still, and silent.
    Blessings! Karen, OBS Group Leader

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