Two messages I seem to get from my computer – No network connections and Not Responding. How true to life these phrases can become. Of note, these drive me crazy. I don’t want to slow down and these phrases result in my speed going from high speed to stop.
The same thing happens in life it seems, I loose network connections. For instance:
- I loose contact with friends over time because the connection becomes weak. I think of my childhood BFF and how we had drifted apart over the years. It wasn’t that I didn’t miss her, but the connection had gone. She had moved away and I remained in our hometown. Her life led her down different pathways and mine kept me here. However, life events brought us back together and our connection is strong. We text at least a few times a week and feel like we have picked up where the connection became weak. I am so grateful for the technology network connection of Facebook and texting that got us back here.
- I also loose connections with friends and family close by. Life gets so busy and the hours get filled with things. My calendar has multiple appointments. I already deplete myself of sleep to squeeze more things in. Last week it worked out to go out with a couple friends to celebrate a birthday. It had been over a year, and probably closer to two. Our conversation and laughter was non-stop. Did I get any further behind in the day because of the celebration? Likely not, and even if I had, the reconnection of the friendship network gave me a renewed energy. As the holiday season quickly approaches may I find more network connections and strengthen them.
- I also loose my network connection with God at times. It takes planning and effort to maintain any relationship. I know, from experience, one-sided friendships really don’t work. Being the friend is always seeking out the communication and connections can get weary. The same goes for God. He hands me the world, but at times I get so wrapped up in the world and everything I want that I miss what is right before me. Some would say the relationship must be maintained on Sundays in church. And though, being with my church family does my heart good, it is not the deepness I need. To me that’s like dating once a week. It’s like dating and marriage – the more you go out / the longer I am married the more I know my husband. I know it needs to be a daily event, and well though I speak to God daily, there are times it is honestly shoved between other things I need to get done. Maybe it’s a short prayer (not that He won’t hear them), or a quick praise (not that He won’t appreciate that). But, I can’t expect to spend little time with Him and learning about Him and expect to develop the deepness in a relationship.
- Some of my strongest network connections with God are while driving in the car. Sometimes it is the perfect song that comes on and I just sing to the top of my lungs (Sam is not in there to tell me to stop). But often, I intentionally shut the radio off and just spill it, like He is physically sitting next to me. However, I know that my network connection strength can vary daily with Him. I have to be the one to take the next step. I love to listen to the ElevationChurch (Steve Furtick) podcast and listen several times a week. When I get to read or have my Kindle read to me, it is a Christian Author, just so I can fill my mind with positive thoughts. I also have gotten much better about Prayer with FaceBook because I love to lift people up. They may not come out and say they need a prayer, but I know in my gut they do. It is one moment in time to lift that person up to a God who already knows their need.
My network connection is definitely a continual work in progress, and I am thankful I serve a God who loves me because of who HE is, not because of what I do.
The other annoying computer issue is “Not Responding”. When I pull up a computer page and it says it is not responding I want to scream (and Sam does especially if Netflix or YouTube – lol). There are several other times:
- I can tell you in every day life, it drives me crazy when I send out an email, a phone call, a text, etc and I do not get a response. I of course analyze it and feel sometimes disrespected, less important, etc.
- I have children and a husband, and one thing that can drive me crazy is to yell there name (when they know I am fixing supper) and to get no response or a response of what. They are NOT responding, or at least not how I want them to.
- I mentioned earlier that I often reconnect in the car. Lately, I have been doing a lot of outside work preparing the yard for winter. Normally, I plug in a podcast or some music and reconnect my network. However, the last few times I have found myself brewing over some things. Rewinding them in my mind and hitting the repeat button. During this time, I have been talking out loud and I am sure God is listening intently. He is likely expecting my praises and prayers and all He gets is my moaning and groaning. I am NOT responding the way He wants me to, and He already knows He is NOT responding the way I want Him to (after all, I have some great solutions if He would just listen – LOL). Of course, the more I brew and hit the rewind button, the more I spew. It rolls over to my husband in some of our deeper conversation. What happens, he does NOT respond to my issues (or at least not how I want him to – remember I am the one with the solution – lol).
- Occasionally (often), our dog does NOT respond the way I want her to. I can yell and scream at the top of my voice and it may not even touch her reaction.
God, I am sure, sits on His throne, and yells at the top of His voice, and I don’t respond the way He wants me to. I get so wrapped up in my ways, my visions, my thoughts that I warp them to being “God’s will”. I have heard people say that such and such is God’s will for their life, and I think to myself “they need a hearing aid”. From my view point, they are not correct. However, in Isaiah 55:8-9 it reminds me that His thoughts are NOT my thoughts. I think of men of the Bible like Jonah, who didn’t initially respond to God’s instructions – he got swallowed by a fish – and in the end did exactly what he was suppose to do initially had he just responded. Oh, so many days I am like Jonah, running, instead of just responding. As irritating as it is when I encounter NOT responding by others, I can only the magnitude that Christ feels everyday.
So maybe the next time I see the No Network Connection and Not Responding on my computer, it can be a self check for my life, my relationship with others, and mostly my relationship with Christ.